The Present
Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 5:05 PM
Well.
Its 17:06 hrs on my watch. I'm like so bored rite now. Got my off but can't go anywhere. Mum says "Budak kene buasir takle merayap!!".Gosh.im only going out for awhile-____-. I was planning to go out with her. But unfortunately.im too scared to make more promises. False hopes are too far out to be demolished by my long absence. I'mbeing downed to more pressured priorities that i'm persevering to endure. My problems??Hard to explain-__- Let's just sae i got three more months to my ORD. Hopefully by that time..Everything gets better & i'll start a new beginning next year.

I missed out a lot.
Especially her. Kept being undeniable cause I'm scared I'll be more drawn to you like a paranoia.-__-. I can't deny this feelings has grown immensely, but i convinced myself not to be too conditional. But i won't give up.until she herself push me away. Gosh.i sound like a lunatic.hha.
Her birthday is coming. Been looking around for all the pink stuff i could find.only got two. Bit there's more. Hope she'll love it..
Finally budak gila tu dah tua.Aku kalau dah ckp kau akan tua ..msti kau tua nyer..wahahahaa..
k..lame.i know..hha

I just need to top up my pp8 so i can msg that gal who can't speak properly-___-lol.
I think she's watching the new kajol movie, "we are family"..well..whatever-___-.hha.

Alrite.till here..dah kene pekik gy solat.
Tak sabar nak buat die nanges on her special day..(tears of endearing joy)hhaa.
k.till here.


Whatever happens to us
I'll still be here
Cause whatever happens
Happens now
The present is us


HSS

My Now
Monday, September 6, 2010, 10:51 PM
Really long time huh...

so much has happened..
Some expected & some just vastly intimidating..
Details i won't splat on this blog.I just let u guys wonder..haha
Life's fine i guess.
Afraid to use "great"..cause it has such deeper meaning.

For now my family is my biggest priority.
Especially my sis..
"I just want u to get well.
I'll do anything to protect you.
Coz when i say i love you.i really do"
Insya'allah..u'll get better day by day..
We'll always pray for you.

Even at my downs..there's always someone who's there..
Even if she don't show that she care..but i know she does.
I'm so grateful for that.
She made me realise that this world ain't always a fantasy.
u need to face reality.
And unfortunately this guy is drawn to you & head over heels for you.
This feeling is unpredictable .
but its true
I have to know what you're doing
Every updates about you.
Coz you mean so much to me now.
I know ur not ready..
If there's no affliation between us ..i surrender..
But i'll try my best to prove that im the one.
Even in my "gemok" state rite now.-____-...

What i wanna sae now is..


For now..
U really hurl up my world
You made me mad
You made me sad
Coz ur so terrible
Despite that i can't walk on a day w/o hearing you
Its not paranoia
Its not fake
Its just you
You that made me a better me
Coz u made me face reality
And the reality is
My feelings are true
For you


Harniz Sufiyan Shah b. Syu'alman.



Let things be, If its meant to be
HSS