tiz laz few daes i had a bit of fun. went out wif cuzz on sat watched firewerks,met her frens & we go town to watch midnight movie..we watched 4bia..damn it was reli frightening..full of suspense & comedy 2..like we malay's used to sae..(kelakar seram).reli enjoyed the movie but full of unpleasant memories.

so....


i decided to

go

home



with my




cuzz..hee

her frens were reli kewl..& the funny ting is ,we've juz met ,but it seems like we've known 4 a long10 time..& a funny bt swiot ting happened..we were about to go home..it was 3.45 am..& her fren shidah asked me if i would consider to haf a gf..i suddenly stammered with my words..coz i was shocked at 1st when she ask me tat querie..& my cuzz was like,eh..kn dier dah blng dier tak ready..den smuer kwn dier was like ,"wah...shidah seyy.."..i was smiling all the way..not bcoz i kembang or sumtin but coz tber2 jek she randomly asked tat q's..

& my ans to tat was MAYB..when i found sum1 tat can make me melt.& she was like,"hw bout me?"..i tot she was jokin..budden,the look on her face was like the ghost i watched juz nw..it was more gruelling than the ghost in the movie.den i stammered again,& i replied.hmm mayb..klu ader jodoh..she then paused 4 moment & suddenly laughed.."ala..mmng ar,u wuldn't wanna sum1 llike me"den i juz smile. seriouslly she was hot just tat.she's scarying me.i mean reli scary.

k..enugh bout her..den went to slip at my cuzz house & chatted till mornin..den went to meet my bro's.& otw there..i took buz 187..i tink i saw the moz prettiest gal i've seen..she looked like mahirah (the siti's nurhaliza clone frm s'pore)she was soooooooo..ok nvm..she was wif tiz baby boy..i assume its her bro..coz she looked like 16+ like tat.she was dressed in a kebaya..so i guessed otw nk g jemputan.& i secretly look at her 4 a couple of times..haha..sat behind her..& the baby kept looking at me..i wanna go like"gagagaga!!,mane dier",den i guessed it wuld b so stup..so i kept quiet the whole time..juz smiling at the baby & her.den suddenly,she asked me,"dari mane?"den i stammer again..like i always did..my reply was," huh10??a.......aaaa...ape dier?"was freaking embarrased man!..den she giggled..den i asnwerd..told her i juz came bck frm my cuzz house ..den we chatted 4 a while..
she told me she's otw to jempotan & othe stuffs..she kept laughing all the time coz i make stupid jokes &faces at her bro..& the baby bro was seriously the cutest ting on earth..& when my time to alight..i regreted..i juz wave gdbye to her..she was koling me& juz alight & wave gdbye to her..damn stupid rght..shuld have asked for her num..which i never did..haissh..wished get to see her again..well,nvm..s'pore is small..still gt hope ..haha..nvm can wait 4 the 1..

den after tat went to meet my bro's went to imm..it was raining so heavily..& we wore sweaters like cm nk g rompak bank g2..ahha..lepak jap kt imm..coz ilham rindu nk gy imm..dunnoe y wif tat guy..haha..den went home.shower & siap2 nk g masjid 4 the kenduri @ masjid asyakirin.den bler dah siap..i tot my mum siap oredi..i was freaking mad i tell u..we were supposed to b there at 6+ pm like tat..& we arrived at 8.20..pathatic rght..every1 looked at us when we arrived..aiayaa..& the uztaz 4 the syarahan was ustaz ahamad dahri..he's real funny..coz he's the moz popular amongst the other ustazs..it was an honour to have him there..he's my idol nw ..i think..haha..we ate so damn lot..nasi minyak..its like too much 4 me..i end up throwing up at home. well i think it ends here..reali tired seyy..typing frm juz nw..

& i reli wanna b sum1 whu brings inspiration to the young minds in the making...ceyy yan..speaking seyy..haha

k..till here..dunnoe when gg to upload again..




"take no halves, eat your whole"

-harniz sufiyan shah
wow..its been a real long3 time since i've updated my blog.
so many things happen
SWEET,
SOUR,
SPICE
& everything that's NOT nice..haha.
its really been proven i'm lousy at rlshp's i/ve rejected 3 girls so farthey think that i cun 4get her..mayb they're rght, but its really ain't bout that..i wannna commit to myself b4 i can commit to others..& now i really dunnoe whu i really like. i have myself to blame.i will b with sum1 when WE can CLICK wif each other.i know i cun b the best,but i'll surely TRY.

& 2 u gals im reli sorry..im reali nt ready..its betta if we just b frens..u deserve much3 betta guys than i ..ok..enugh bout love thingy..

wad concerns me moz is my NS..i dunnoe wwhn im gg in..im waiting like freaking long..still no letters..so nxt week..im gg there to register yet AGAIN..wah..am i tat pathethic that they dun want me..haha..bt i do hope i get in the police squad..it'll b ok for me.. & nw i'm currently into fencing & kick-boxing..its reali fun..i get to kick ass & strike ass..haha..but my main passion is composing & writing songs..still in the process.hopefully i can do it b4 the fasting month..i wrote quite a handful of songs..luckily i got my cuzzies & frens to help me compose them..especially fariz..he's always eager to help ppl..its in our blood i guess.haha.im oso in the training playing the guitar..so3 damn hard..but improving.i nid to work on my tapping ,strumming & chords..waliao..chords so damn hard seyy..bud nevemind..still wun giffup.if my cuz can do like a pro..y can i ..rght..haha

& recently..me & my sedara jauh have cum close too..even my ex..cun believe she's my cuzzie..haha..miz the chance..damn..haha..juz kidding...she was shocked when i told her my longest rlshp was 1 & 1/2 yrs..haha..i juz wish it culd b longer..well evry human beings live wig regrets..its just hw u restrain frm it & learning hw to replenish the mistakes..i/ve made tonns of mistakes..even nw..i/ve nt spoken to my mum for like 1 & 1/2 weeks nw..she too doesn/t seem to care..but i/ll still do the 1st move..& i reli lurv her..even though we fought like evrdae..bud she's still my 1st ever love..i juz wanna b the best 4 her b4 its too late.

& like evrdae like no life ..werk2..hha.nemind ..gt income mahh..
& i made up my mind..if i dun get to ns tiz yr or next..im gg to pursue my studies overseas..i relii wanna made a mrk on my own..reli grateful 4 all the support my dad & relatives given me..only my mum doesn't seem to care..oh,well..betta to leave then.,that's the reason i dun wan to have any rlshp 4 nw.but if tat sum1 can wait..hmm..hmm.hmm..i doubt so..haha..k..reli tired frm typing..k..will try to update evrydae..& cun wait to mit farlyana kat dover esk..its nt a date k..i treat her like my kakak..k..gtg..bye2:)& yar i do miz her

"the sun will never shine till u try"

harniz sufiyan shah, 21:45, 20/08/08, Thursday