my deep secret
Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 8:09 PM
i dunnoe wad i'm feeling right now. alot of mixtures,
but on the priority part..
i feel like dying..

hha..ns boy can b so depressed huh??

Well, hmm..


i gotta be honest now..


i think the reason i can't handle rlshp's or have feeling for another gal is because..

i can't get over her..
My EX..My First Love

i really can't.i still keep her photos of us in my wallet , i still keep the things she made for me.
i know i'm like an idiot not getting over a gal who left , 3 years ago. i just can't forgive myself, till now.

& the best thing is

SHE GOT ENGAGED

on 10TH OF MARCH.(that is on my P.O.P DAY!)

i was so shocked.


& i'm really sorry to those whu just found my deep secret..im really sorry i lied to u guyz. i know u guyz think that i've long forgotten about her.but i dunnoe ..really can't ..
And to those who know my ex, plz dun tell her aites..i noe who u guyz are.Let me locked it inside..i will try to forget her & i know i've hurt alot of gals bcoz of this especially miz random.whu was always there for me.im really sorry. i know , now i have to forget her b4 i really get into a real rlshp.

i noe i can't do anitin..

but i'll try my best to forget her,coz i noe she will only b my imagination.


i really wish the best for her.

i dunnoe wad else to say..im gg off nw

Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 5:43 PM
Gosh
i can't believe i'm at home for like 7 days now..really happy.
but didn't make use much of the time lately.
hmm.. i know i must take back my sweater from someone today. but i decided not to.
i really wanna her to keep it.i have no ulterior motives. juz want u to have it.
i know someone gave me up.

i just wanna u noe, that thru the days we've known each other, though we've met only for a while.It still brightens up inside. & i really wanna thank you for being my friend . if ur reading this i really want u to keep that sweater. u can do whatever u want with it. But i really don't want it back, coz i've given it to u.

& i konw we may not talk to each other animure.

i relli wanna sae sorry..if i reli2 hurt u in anwae..i'm not fit to b ur fren animure..



Ever since u'r gone my life starts with a smile & ends with a tear



farewell friend