Reality Check
Wednesday, November 5, 2008, 7:43 PM
im here at thr office,another few minutes to get the hell out of here..

i still can't get over with yesterdae..
Now i noe i dun belong here. I should just leave.
I dun wanna b a burden & huge dissapointment.
I noe all the years thay brought me up. I reli wanna change & bcum some1 even betta than i am now. I'm not asking 4 perfectness, but i wanna undone my mistakes & pay back what i debt. & i know now, she'll probably hate me for sure.
I know i don't have time. & i finally began to realise that my whole life was wasted so much, way to much. I just feel i reli don't deserve ani1, they'll hate me 4 sure as they get to know me betta.

If i keep becuming wad i am now. I'm jus gg to hurt myself & the ppl around me even more. Im such an ass, its not a joke its true. I'm thinking bout quitting my job & look 4 a job where no one give a damn bout whu i am. Coz i noe i'm under my uncle's armpit's, he'll scold ani1 whu dares bully me. Damn it i can handle it on my own.I'm sick of being called that. Thats why i made that decision.
I reli hate it when i look at myself now. It reflects even worse than wad i feel now.
I juz lost some1 whu i've grown to like & now its all just pen'ned yestrdae.
I guess its 4 the best. Damn it , i'm going off now.