i/m useless!!

i reli am..
i reli feel like crying nw..i noe guys nt suppose to cry..but i reli can't hold it animure.so many things had happened.
miz-star's gone..i'll reli miz her..i love her so much!if she was still alive & she's younger than me.i would have force her to b my gal.i didn't even get to see her 4 the laz time.i reli gonna miz those times..& wtf..she died so young!!!its reli unfair!i love her so much!.nw probably i have no one.shit..nw i feel like crapt.

kak idah i will alwaes remember what u said to me:



i will reli miz her.she died at a young age..we will all miz her.she's our angel,she's our light & she's our pride.she's everything to us.even though she's nt related in blood,but we're all one big family.
nw i'll b all alone..no more kakak.but i will heed her words & make a mark on my own..she always scold me 4 the stupid things i do.& the worst thing is i loz a very good fren & a very good sis'.

i shouldn't have make a promise when its obvious i couldn't make it.i reli regret..nw she probably wun fgive me.coz i noe im nt fit to b her fren.i reli am.so useless.shit i hate being like thiz nw..lagi2 bulan puase.she ws the best ever fren i had & i treated her like that.it was un-intetional.bt i noe she wun fgive me.read her pm,& i was totally crushed.& i noe ,i can never make her happy.wish i can pluck up my courage & say sorry to her..but sorryis nt juz a word u can sae.i dunnoe hw to face her anymore.she''ll probably thinks that i do tiz on purpose.i never wanna loose her even though we known 4 a period of time.but we're like best budds.a day w/o her voice ,i duunoe where to express my emotions to.she was my listening ear.

i guess thiz means goodbye.dunnoe wat to do animure.if onli kak idah is alive