wow..its been a real long3 time since i've updated my blog.
so many things happen
SWEET,
SOUR,
SPICE
& everything that's NOT nice..haha.
its really been proven i'm lousy at rlshp's i/ve rejected 3 girls so farthey think that i cun 4get her..mayb they're rght, but its really ain't bout that..i wannna commit to myself b4 i can commit to others..& now i really dunnoe whu i really like. i have myself to blame.i will b with sum1 when WE can CLICK wif each other.i know i cun b the best,but i'll surely TRY.

& 2 u gals im reli sorry..im reali nt ready..its betta if we just b frens..u deserve much3 betta guys than i ..ok..enugh bout love thingy..

wad concerns me moz is my NS..i dunnoe wwhn im gg in..im waiting like freaking long..still no letters..so nxt week..im gg there to register yet AGAIN..wah..am i tat pathethic that they dun want me..haha..bt i do hope i get in the police squad..it'll b ok for me.. & nw i'm currently into fencing & kick-boxing..its reali fun..i get to kick ass & strike ass..haha..but my main passion is composing & writing songs..still in the process.hopefully i can do it b4 the fasting month..i wrote quite a handful of songs..luckily i got my cuzzies & frens to help me compose them..especially fariz..he's always eager to help ppl..its in our blood i guess.haha.im oso in the training playing the guitar..so3 damn hard..but improving.i nid to work on my tapping ,strumming & chords..waliao..chords so damn hard seyy..bud nevemind..still wun giffup.if my cuz can do like a pro..y can i ..rght..haha

& recently..me & my sedara jauh have cum close too..even my ex..cun believe she's my cuzzie..haha..miz the chance..damn..haha..juz kidding...she was shocked when i told her my longest rlshp was 1 & 1/2 yrs..haha..i juz wish it culd b longer..well evry human beings live wig regrets..its just hw u restrain frm it & learning hw to replenish the mistakes..i/ve made tonns of mistakes..even nw..i/ve nt spoken to my mum for like 1 & 1/2 weeks nw..she too doesn/t seem to care..but i/ll still do the 1st move..& i reli lurv her..even though we fought like evrdae..bud she's still my 1st ever love..i juz wanna b the best 4 her b4 its too late.

& like evrdae like no life ..werk2..hha.nemind ..gt income mahh..
& i made up my mind..if i dun get to ns tiz yr or next..im gg to pursue my studies overseas..i relii wanna made a mrk on my own..reli grateful 4 all the support my dad & relatives given me..only my mum doesn't seem to care..oh,well..betta to leave then.,that's the reason i dun wan to have any rlshp 4 nw.but if tat sum1 can wait..hmm..hmm.hmm..i doubt so..haha..k..reli tired frm typing..k..will try to update evrydae..& cun wait to mit farlyana kat dover esk..its nt a date k..i treat her like my kakak..k..gtg..bye2:)& yar i do miz her

"the sun will never shine till u try"

harniz sufiyan shah, 21:45, 20/08/08, Thursday